after figuring bout my problem one whole night i finally got a solution why am i crying okay here it is
cheer competition is almost here, so we all have to same stress ( comparison method )
your stress level = my stress level
and it was the 1st time doing the new tumbling, so im nervous and therefore got extra stress
your stress level = my stress level x2
and after you losing your stress level by shouting at me, i gain stress from you
your stress level --------------------- = my stress level x stress from beginner x stress from your shout 2
so it ends up like this
1/2 of your stress = 3 times of my stress
to make it accurate, lets make it a whole number, so it would be like this
1 times of stress = 6 times of my stress
the conclusion is im 6 times more stressful than you are so please dont say that im not strong and why am i crying over a small matter all these while i've been staying strong till there's 6times different of our stress level
today was a really bad day for me well it started with the super-duper-heavy-rain-and-thunder-plus-lightning weather and we end up talking bout the plan for cheer so the conclusion is maybe we'll be having a 3days 2night sleepover at my place and the transport problem is SOLVED
but the bad luck started to get to me i finally did a super-hard tumbling ( for me it is ) and its not really consisten its like doing it 3 times i can get 2 times done and the other 1 totally OUT and i started taking over Isya's place coz she's got injuries and here comes the bad thingy i've got serious out-of-timing problem and she started telling EVERYONE coz i ermm... block her way and i felt like damn stress edi lastly i cant bear it anymore i run off to my secret hideout and cry like nobody's business i just cant take it anymore i ain't perfect this is my 1st day doing this i've only spend less than 3 hours doing this new thingy and im sorry if i let you down im really sorry
p/s thanks to PIRATES ALL BOYS AND GIRLS to comfort me and be there for me.. thanks to syafiq also =) sorry for saying LEAVE ME ALONE coz if you guys start comforting me i know i'll never control my tears again.
and also happy birthday to kak meyra =) now you can go clubbing legally yay!!! x)
waking up and looking at the clock shit im almost late!!! forcing myself to get up although i can feel my knuckles cracking after tidying up myself, staring into the mirror looking at my shoulders and my back i feel like screaming, the scars are scary.. well i dont have time for that rushing down and here i am -- my cheer practice --
i'll never blame cheer coz this is wad i love to do everyone start training the routines some doing tumblings while some trying to improve their dance and makan time!!! discussing which mamak to go and whether nasi goreng or maggi goreng you can see us all ALIVE and after eating continuing where we left till 5pm
okay =) thats my daily routine for the past 2weeks and im gonna even train harder this week coz WE WANT TO WIN winning is wad we're aiming for GIRLS LETS GIVE ALL OUT!!! i <3>
muackss =)
its your birthday happy birthday =) i can't text/call you to wish you coz i know thats not wad im suppose to do you've got a group of great friends and a really good girlfriend so i guess it really is time to say goodbye
you know wad? i've moved on too =) so one day if we saw each other across the street i'll just smile and say hi i might shed a tear for our imcomplete journey of love i knew deep inside you're the one =) but i know you'll no longer be the one for me
she's really a nice girl i hope you guys would really get together till the end now, i've got my heart back thanks for loving it once upon a time goodbye =)
well...
i guess its really hard to not make my dad angry
coz i went to kelly's clarkson concert the next day
and it was AWESOME
okay i'll just forget about her chubby face and bare foot >.< but it was really fun i mean everyone was enjoying themselves and they way she sing was like 'wow, this is how a concert suppose to be!' and i had a lot of fun in alfred's house im so sorry to keep him waiting for 2hours im so so so sorry alfred i promise this wont happen again he and his partner baked the chocalate fudgy thingy and it turns out quite 'NICE' they only get 1 success out of 5 but it taste really good especially when you mix it wif the ice-creams =)
and i get to know a new friend- Elaine it really is a surprise when you realize how small the world is and she know all your friends and you both listen so much thing bout each other and never met we sang in the theater room and it was so fun xD they both sang so well and i think i ruin the whole song xD we chat for quite a while then alfred's parents drove us to da stadium.. then after meeting up wif some of his friends we managed to get in and here comes kelly *drum rolls* and the whole stadium started to shout with the top of their voice okay im included xD but the bad news is we've been recording some of our favourite songs and here comes a girl telling us not to but me and alfred didnt give a damn we just continue xD and kelly only sang for like 2hours and its over awww... thats really sad but its worth it =) and we promised that if justin bieber is coming we'll surely go together again xD
actually im kinda sad these days due to the ISSUES but im much better now.. i mean way better now =) thanks alfread and nice meeting you Elaine =)
and thanks dad for fetching me although its midnight thanks for not scolding me or showing me the effed up face i really love you and mum FAMILY * i promise i wont arrange my schedule like this ever again*
its really been a long time ever since i blog bout my life... hee =)
ohh yea... its been a long time since me n her gone back to normal and hmm... i guess its alright now =)
i dont know if this is gonna happen another time
but now all im doing is to get as far as i can from him
JUST IN CASE
well... 24/4 was really a tiring but happy day as usual i go for bc in the morning then me and crystal went to the cheer practice till 3 and after bathing in her house staraight away we went to soo ying's church event and it was fun.. i saw kevin,johanand,mark,and so many more friends we enjoyed the game we went back early coz i thought my parents were mad at me later on i found out that they weren't that mad so we decided to catch a movie
after years of walking finally we reached galaxy we chose 'The Losers' its a 18and above only movie but the ppl doesnt care all we need to do is walk straight in xD the movie was epic!!! it was quite funny and its some kinda action movie and the girl in the movie is seriously hot!!! after the movie my mom fetched me home and i reached home around 11.30pm
i went out this morning since 9am and went home on 11.30pm this is so not cool coz my dad is really mad at me but he's okay after that i'm really sorry daddy i promise i'll never do this again i'll tell you my full schedule and wont make you worry bout me ILY dad <3
before 5pm on April 15 i almost believed that my life is over, MBFTIHARWHBF well i'm not gonna mention her name in this, didnt wanna do any blog attack or wadever shit coz she was my bestie at least i treated her as one... i really can't believe wads happening today.. how i wish it was a dream and when i wake up i'll still see her in school with her are-you-late-again face... but its all true.. no matter how hard i try to wipe those words off my head there's a sound in my mind saying that ' she hates you now.end of story. ' and when you hold my hand and tell me you're alright i almost believed it until 2.40pm i found out that you actually backstabbed me no words could describe my feelings you didnt believe me.fine. maybe you're stressed out you pretend that everything is okay.fine. maybe you dun wanna we both feel bad you backstabbed me.with him. how shud i react? babe it really is okay if u think i'm a bitch i still love you? sorry thats not me, dun wanna pretend i'm alright with that and the worst part is after backstabbing me, founding out that i really had nothing to do wif that you just went like everything is back to normal telling me that you're okay now its not like that,i'm telling you now i'm not okay i'm sad,i'm hurted,i'm depressed you wont give a damn and you did not apologize for hurting my feelings like that... did you know you just crashed my world into pieces? ohh sorry i forgot you dont give a damn about wad happen to me all you ever think of is that you're sad and you're hurted wad about me? have you ever consider about my feelings? i know that answer.. NO
until alex and kitmun is here... alex's junior passed away... i felt so sorry for her and that girl... someone murdered her... i curse the murderer to death! and suddenly i realise something why am i so sad because of one particular person? i'm not gonna hate you its not because i dont mind wad u did its because i dont want to put you under the VIP category in my world so wad u did wont hurt me anymore... we're still friends... i guess...
after figuring bout my problem one whole night i finally got a solution why am i crying okay here it is
cheer competition is almost here, so we all have to same stress ( comparison method )
your stress level = my stress level
and it was the 1st time doing the new tumbling, so im nervous and therefore got extra stress
your stress level = my stress level x2
and after you losing your stress level by shouting at me, i gain stress from you
your stress level --------------------- = my stress level x stress from beginner x stress from your shout 2
so it ends up like this
1/2 of your stress = 3 times of my stress
to make it accurate, lets make it a whole number, so it would be like this
1 times of stress = 6 times of my stress
the conclusion is im 6 times more stressful than you are so please dont say that im not strong and why am i crying over a small matter all these while i've been staying strong till there's 6times different of our stress level
today was a really bad day for me well it started with the super-duper-heavy-rain-and-thunder-plus-lightning weather and we end up talking bout the plan for cheer so the conclusion is maybe we'll be having a 3days 2night sleepover at my place and the transport problem is SOLVED
but the bad luck started to get to me i finally did a super-hard tumbling ( for me it is ) and its not really consisten its like doing it 3 times i can get 2 times done and the other 1 totally OUT and i started taking over Isya's place coz she's got injuries and here comes the bad thingy i've got serious out-of-timing problem and she started telling EVERYONE coz i ermm... block her way and i felt like damn stress edi lastly i cant bear it anymore i run off to my secret hideout and cry like nobody's business i just cant take it anymore i ain't perfect this is my 1st day doing this i've only spend less than 3 hours doing this new thingy and im sorry if i let you down im really sorry
p/s thanks to PIRATES ALL BOYS AND GIRLS to comfort me and be there for me.. thanks to syafiq also =) sorry for saying LEAVE ME ALONE coz if you guys start comforting me i know i'll never control my tears again.
and also happy birthday to kak meyra =) now you can go clubbing legally yay!!! x)
waking up and looking at the clock shit im almost late!!! forcing myself to get up although i can feel my knuckles cracking after tidying up myself, staring into the mirror looking at my shoulders and my back i feel like screaming, the scars are scary.. well i dont have time for that rushing down and here i am -- my cheer practice --
i'll never blame cheer coz this is wad i love to do everyone start training the routines some doing tumblings while some trying to improve their dance and makan time!!! discussing which mamak to go and whether nasi goreng or maggi goreng you can see us all ALIVE and after eating continuing where we left till 5pm
okay =) thats my daily routine for the past 2weeks and im gonna even train harder this week coz WE WANT TO WIN winning is wad we're aiming for GIRLS LETS GIVE ALL OUT!!! i <3>
muackss =)
its your birthday happy birthday =) i can't text/call you to wish you coz i know thats not wad im suppose to do you've got a group of great friends and a really good girlfriend so i guess it really is time to say goodbye
you know wad? i've moved on too =) so one day if we saw each other across the street i'll just smile and say hi i might shed a tear for our imcomplete journey of love i knew deep inside you're the one =) but i know you'll no longer be the one for me
she's really a nice girl i hope you guys would really get together till the end now, i've got my heart back thanks for loving it once upon a time goodbye =)
well...
i guess its really hard to not make my dad angry
coz i went to kelly's clarkson concert the next day
and it was AWESOME
okay i'll just forget about her chubby face and bare foot >.< but it was really fun i mean everyone was enjoying themselves and they way she sing was like 'wow, this is how a concert suppose to be!' and i had a lot of fun in alfred's house im so sorry to keep him waiting for 2hours im so so so sorry alfred i promise this wont happen again he and his partner baked the chocalate fudgy thingy and it turns out quite 'NICE' they only get 1 success out of 5 but it taste really good especially when you mix it wif the ice-creams =)
and i get to know a new friend- Elaine it really is a surprise when you realize how small the world is and she know all your friends and you both listen so much thing bout each other and never met we sang in the theater room and it was so fun xD they both sang so well and i think i ruin the whole song xD we chat for quite a while then alfred's parents drove us to da stadium.. then after meeting up wif some of his friends we managed to get in and here comes kelly *drum rolls* and the whole stadium started to shout with the top of their voice okay im included xD but the bad news is we've been recording some of our favourite songs and here comes a girl telling us not to but me and alfred didnt give a damn we just continue xD and kelly only sang for like 2hours and its over awww... thats really sad but its worth it =) and we promised that if justin bieber is coming we'll surely go together again xD
actually im kinda sad these days due to the ISSUES but im much better now.. i mean way better now =) thanks alfread and nice meeting you Elaine =)
and thanks dad for fetching me although its midnight thanks for not scolding me or showing me the effed up face i really love you and mum FAMILY * i promise i wont arrange my schedule like this ever again*
its really been a long time ever since i blog bout my life... hee =)
ohh yea... its been a long time since me n her gone back to normal and hmm... i guess its alright now =)
i dont know if this is gonna happen another time
but now all im doing is to get as far as i can from him
JUST IN CASE
well... 24/4 was really a tiring but happy day as usual i go for bc in the morning then me and crystal went to the cheer practice till 3 and after bathing in her house staraight away we went to soo ying's church event and it was fun.. i saw kevin,johanand,mark,and so many more friends we enjoyed the game we went back early coz i thought my parents were mad at me later on i found out that they weren't that mad so we decided to catch a movie
after years of walking finally we reached galaxy we chose 'The Losers' its a 18and above only movie but the ppl doesnt care all we need to do is walk straight in xD the movie was epic!!! it was quite funny and its some kinda action movie and the girl in the movie is seriously hot!!! after the movie my mom fetched me home and i reached home around 11.30pm
i went out this morning since 9am and went home on 11.30pm this is so not cool coz my dad is really mad at me but he's okay after that i'm really sorry daddy i promise i'll never do this again i'll tell you my full schedule and wont make you worry bout me ILY dad <3
before 5pm on April 15 i almost believed that my life is over, MBFTIHARWHBF well i'm not gonna mention her name in this, didnt wanna do any blog attack or wadever shit coz she was my bestie at least i treated her as one... i really can't believe wads happening today.. how i wish it was a dream and when i wake up i'll still see her in school with her are-you-late-again face... but its all true.. no matter how hard i try to wipe those words off my head there's a sound in my mind saying that ' she hates you now.end of story. ' and when you hold my hand and tell me you're alright i almost believed it until 2.40pm i found out that you actually backstabbed me no words could describe my feelings you didnt believe me.fine. maybe you're stressed out you pretend that everything is okay.fine. maybe you dun wanna we both feel bad you backstabbed me.with him. how shud i react? babe it really is okay if u think i'm a bitch i still love you? sorry thats not me, dun wanna pretend i'm alright with that and the worst part is after backstabbing me, founding out that i really had nothing to do wif that you just went like everything is back to normal telling me that you're okay now its not like that,i'm telling you now i'm not okay i'm sad,i'm hurted,i'm depressed you wont give a damn and you did not apologize for hurting my feelings like that... did you know you just crashed my world into pieces? ohh sorry i forgot you dont give a damn about wad happen to me all you ever think of is that you're sad and you're hurted wad about me? have you ever consider about my feelings? i know that answer.. NO
until alex and kitmun is here... alex's junior passed away... i felt so sorry for her and that girl... someone murdered her... i curse the murderer to death! and suddenly i realise something why am i so sad because of one particular person? i'm not gonna hate you its not because i dont mind wad u did its because i dont want to put you under the VIP category in my world so wad u did wont hurt me anymore... we're still friends... i guess...
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